Thursday, May 02, 2019

After Party

Niece is healed
I am thankful that she can do things like lay on her stomach and exercise again.
yeah science!

My birthday came and went
birthday outfit

I started the day with yoga...
turns out, the one person I chat with in morning classes is a birthday twin!
Never in my life have I known someone else who shares my birthday!
( I will call it mine even though it is hers too)

I had breakfast chessecake bars with my parents, 
along with an awkward but nice visit.
The Barren sent flowers to me, 
he hasn't done that in years!
and then I was alone...
I wondered what to do.
I bought myself some lunch out
I went to a thrift store
and then came home again still not sure what to do with myself.

I ended the night with some couch time with the cat and then off to bed.
I think I need to plan my birthday activities far better for next year.
I am left with a feeling of disappointment in myself.

The Barren returned and will be leaving again Sunday for another week away....
I am excited about what he will be able to do while away...but I miss him terribly.

I have yet to get my period too...
seems I am already all over the board with my cycles.
I took a pregnancy test yesterday...
just to cross that off my worry list.
Now it is a worry...before it would not have been,
The Barren asked if it felt weird peeing on a stick again...
I said it wasn't too weird except I could hear my heart beating in my ears.

The not bleeding thing is wild, and quite a convenient feature in my day.
I am apocalypse level loaded up on tampons and pads... and if things continue like this, 
I will make them into small grab bags for homeless women I encounter.

I was chatting with a yoga teacher before class the other day and she asked how I was feeling post birthday...she is a true star gazer and always keeps me in the loop about astro changes and how they are linked with mood and life...and I explained aside from the normal existential thoughts around your birthday it feels like something in percolating.

I eagerly await this wonderful new event!
I am done with negative shit


Mali said...

Happy birthday - belatedly! Don't beat yourself up. Sounds like you had a nice birthday - but perhaps felt a little let down without The Barren. (Though well done to him on the flowers!) Couch time on the cat actually sounds lovely too. Also - how cool to meet your birthday twin! I have a number of friends and relatives who have birthdays within days of mine, but none on the same day.

Yes. I understand the transitional thinking about pregnancy tests. When you're not hoping for the same result you might have hoped for in the past. When you're taking them for different reasons.

I love your idea about packaging up your sanitary products for homeless women. You've made me think about donating to the local Women's Refuge.

Heres to good news too!

Infertile Phoenix said...

Happy belated Birthday!!! I liked this post. Your day sounded perfect to me. I'm glad you enjoyed the little things. Those breakfast cheesecake bars look delicious! Enjoy the percolating... :)