Thursday, December 06, 2012

The Ball on Thankful Thursday

Tonight is the BIG art event that I made my "goal" to be ready for
when I was preparing for surgery and visualizing the future beyond the event.
I am feeling a lot like still euphorically grateful and mellow.
I'm not gonna lie, I spent a good portion of last night going through outfit options...
I even stopped at a shop I had seen a cute skirt at months ago thinking "why not get something new?" The skirt I had seen was long gone...and so I went home to look through my options.
What I settled on is a pencil skirt and retro and black with a white collar.
Slim fit, and I had to just let go of the fact that, although I feel lighter, there doesn't seem to be an outward reflection of that. I will wear my glee as the shinny accessory!
I am a classic hourglass/pear girl...considering that I come from thick stocked women that are all shaped like apples my pear shape is an anomaly.
I recently recall  hearing an interview that studied people and how they responded to certain shaped people. Hourglass/pear shaped women made people evoked associations with power and sexuality.
I used that as a mantra to love my body even more.
I was able to finally get the last glue to give up it's hold on my skin and it revealed my new button.
I now have an innie AND an outie!
Another new element for my rebirth!

Tonight is work: socializing mixed with business. It involves a lot of talking about methods of making and expressions of emotions, processes. Purpose and drive, vision and execution.
I have to be very present and very engaged.
The last two years I have been part of this event have been like old school New York art openings. There are three to four people between you and the work, the place is packed and filled with energy and beautiful people. Amazing people watching, and electricity!
It also requires a lot of your body, in social parties there is often a place to sit, or a little rest spot to escape to. For me, I commit to the whole night, from open to close, I am there to talk about my work and learn who people are, how they are connected to each other, get cards and hear what they are seeing, making or thinking about work.
This evening will require me to be standing in heels on a cement floor for three plus hours being engaged and social. I have a few dear friends that are planning on coming up to see the circus.
I am excited about it, and when they said
"we know you are working so we will just wave"
I begged them to please not do my friend you allow me to take a break,
 they will be the little seat and room to breathe.

I am so looking forward to what this evening celebrates, and marks for me.
I have made it, and it is gonna be a party from now on!


alloallo said...

this all sounds arty and fabulous, if a bit of a physical trial! Hope you're feeling okay and that it went amazingly.

Mali said...

Ditto. I hope it went great. I loved the sound of your outfit. And I love that your friends can be a "little space to sit and breathe." Good friends are like that.