Three years ago today

Today is the anniversary of my infertility art exhibition.

It opened three years ago, and I was terrified that people would be less than kind about my vision.

There were a few mean comments, some left in my visitor book, some delivered to me personally face to face; BUT the majority of the comments were sweet, kind, heartfelt and honest.

It changed me forever.

 

As I reflect on this day, I am thankful beyond words to be where I am now.

Although I am still infertile and I am still not going to be a parent in this lifetime.

I am also still married to my AMAZING wonderful Barren.

We are understanding and coming into ourselves as grown up kids

We are still asking questions and exploring what we want.

BUT

I am no longer scared or ashamed of my Barreness

I am not thinking of myself as first The Barreness and then all the other qualities of myself.

I am healing my perception of my body.

I am able to look at myself in the mirror and not be mad at my reflection.

I am not only my twisted and fused  reproductive system

I am growing

I am whole

I am strong

I am smiling