I understand

I got my first traffic ticket today...at 7:30 in the morning.

I was calm but shaking and in reflection not as shocked by the whole thing.

I have been taking the same street for months, and making right turns and heading on to work or home...but today, apparently I missed a new fixture.

I was informed by the officer that there are new, no turn on red signs posted.

I didn't see them, I told him that.

He said that there had been a lot of accidents at that intersection,

I told him it made sense to post signs.

He took my papers and wrote me a ticket.

Done

 

I am the type of person who would normally then spend hours berating myself about how I was bad and finally caught, I could have killed someone, I am a bad person.

Instead I called The Barren, told him I can take "get pulled over and get a ticket" off my bucket list.

he chuckled and then asked what happened.

I explained and he said you can fight it...you can talk to the judge.

I told him I would pay the fine and move one, I don't need the drama.

I didn't see the sign, I own it, I was in the wrong.

done

 

I was thinking about getting a massage as I was showering this morning.

I haven't had one since the super cold and I think it would feel nice.

 I might postpone it, due to lack of $$
but after writing this, I am thinking why...it won't change anything.
It is just a ticket, not a branding or a tattoo, a passing reminder that you need to pay better attention.
I think I just changed my own mind.
screw punishing myself....it is time to change that thinking and celebrate
Yahoo I got a ticket, and I am OK with that.