Mind Games

So this not bleeding thing is pretty awesome...

I am comfortable, and feeling like me...whatever that means, I am still learning.

I actually laughed out loud when I read this

Last Friday I went to class and as I entered the studio I had the optics appear before a migraine..

I ran out to the car and took my aspirin and then returned to the studio to take class.

normally my optics don't mean anything except slow down...so I did

the optical stuff dissipated (thanks aspirin) and I felt better, I had opened my vessels and I was putting super oxygenated blood into my brain...

well about half way through class the pain started...I slowed down and did as much as I could.

At the end of class I sat for a little bit thinking maybe it was too hot, or my blood pressure needed to regulate. It was pounding as I walked to the car...and I was feeling quite un-okay.

I had to pick up something from the pharmacy and was thankful that they had a drive thru window, as I smelt REALLY strong and could not imagine masking the pain I was experiencing.

I made it home, ate some pre-made soup and fell into bed.

The cat kept me company:

I was down for the rest of the day, moaning and waiting to be able to take a migraine pill

it was areal adulting moment and I figured as the hormones regulate to my own thing...I might be flattened every once in a while.

The next day I sliced my thumb open while framing artwork and I got to the see The Barren almost pass out from seeing the blood flow outta my finger and into the sink and neighboring counters.

Meanwhile I was looking to see how many fingers were indeed involved in the slip.

It was just my thumb, on my dominate hand.

It didn't hurt and I was strangely calm...

it stopped bleeding and I got to reassure The Barren that it was not infected...

I kept telling him that my body heals itself.

It is amazingly reliable that way.

I spent Sunday on the couch, hiding from additional possible things I could hurt myself on.

Other than that...I am trying to stay busy.

Take yoga as often as possible

eat well

take my vitamins

get sleep

and try and find time with my hubby

We seem to be ships passing-

our schedules are not aligning much and he has back to back travel for business coming up starting next week. So the solo thing is something I need to get cozy with.

We tell each other how much we miss each other...but time never seems to synchronize.

So, still waiting for that big sexual peak thing to snap into place, 

while we are both in the room.

This latest transition is very mortal

I am reminded a lot of my impermanence

I am not sure if it is because I am more aware of it now 

or if I had missed the signs all these years...

Continue to be kind to yourself