Thursday, August 31, 2017

Triggered

" I can not imagine what these people are going through. 
It is mostly the packers on the floor, almost all women"

A dear friend has organized a shipment to her company's packing plant just outside Houston.
She put a call out for supplies and she would ship them tomorrow.
So a bunch of us have gathered things and
 have been dropping them off at her door, since last night.

I went out this morning and got two huge bags of supplies.
Soap, toothbrushes, toothpaste, pads, baby wipes, dog leashes and harnesses, and socks.


I felt a deep trigger when I grabbed multiple packs of little kid and baby socks.
I almost didn't include them but then let the sorrow wash over me and went deeper and 
thought of the parents that just want dry socks on their kids feet.

Natural disasters like the ones we are experiencing are hard to process.
They leave us feeling so fragile and helpless.
I made a donation to a local animal shelter too...so many animals have been impacted too!

Then there is the flooding in India and Nepal and I am lost again.
I sent a text to The Barren:
" I feel so emotionally spent, I need to calm down and focus "
So, I came here.

I feel like a puddle of myself.
How do you process so much grief around you and inside yourself as well?


3 comments:

Mali said...

Sending hugs. I remember feeling overwhelmed when there was the major earthquake that destroyed a lot of Christchurch, the city where I went to university, and then the Japan earthquake and tsunami followed shortly afterwards.

We do what we can, then we have to look after ourselves too. I wrote this at the time - http://nokiddinginnz.blogspot.co.nz/2011/03/to-think-or-not-to-think.html

Infertile Phoenix said...

Thank you for this post. I have been feeling a lot of feelings regarding the storm and its flooding and your last three paragraphs really resonate with me and explain to me what is going on with myself. I've been so sad and confused all week and your post helped me understand why. Again, infertility has a weird, insidious effect on things... Thank you for providing me some clarity, especially your last two sentences.

infertilityhonesty.com said...

Yes! I feel strangely triggered by natural disasters and other mass crisis too. This time it's the pictures of people carrying their children from the flood waters. I feel deeply for them but at the same time my own pain of "I'll never even get to do THAT". It's a lot to take in.