Wednesday, March 07, 2012

Fighting it all

So I am sure a few of you might have picked up on me fighting some blues these days...
maybe it is a post travel blues thing, maybe it is the creative slump I am in
whatever it is I am fighting it tooth and nail and
trying to find what the switch is and how to turn it in another direction.
The girls day was nice, but I felt so unbelievably lonely when the ladies all went home.
It was like my house was three times quieter and I was sitting there with plates of half eaten food, buzzing from 4 or more cups of tea.
Hubby was gone and I had no one to I left the house and went to wander.
I left he house in an effort to not sit in front of the tv and then hours later
 wonder " what have I been doing with my life?"
I went to the music store.
Yes, I still buy music from an independent music store, I buy whole CD's worth of music and I love LOVE cruising thru bins and aisles of music.
Thank goodness for the "music listening stations" or else I would buy music based on my aesthetic whims and
that has not turned out well in the past.

I bought two CD's I have been thinking about:
The Civil Wars

and the newest
 Radio Head
I am not totally in love with either yet.
but they are growing on me...

In the meantime I got three TOTALLY AWESOME hand mixed CD's from Nicole
I literally cried, I was so touched and excited. What a superhero that woman is!

This last Friday I got to have a date night with hubby. I took him out to dinner and then we were going to see a movie, but the movie we wanted to see got panned and we were not intoxicated enough to forgive that off so we skipped the film and ended up in the music store again.
This time we both spent a good bit of time finding little gems.
Hubby listens to a lot of metal; I can list his purchases if you are interested
We listen to a wide range of music to say the least
This time I bought these albums:
Foster the People

James Brown


I can say I am happier out the gate with these
For me, Music is good, it helps me in moods that I can not seem to control.
Like a scout, leading me through emotions that I either need to deal with or need to walk past.

Needless to say, I am still fighting my fight, but now I have a better soundtrack then my mean voices looping and trying to set me into a downward tailspin


Nicole said...

Hugs to you. I am so sorry to hear you are still struggling w/the blues. I have been there so many times and I know how hard it can be. It sounds like you are doing some good things for yourself and finding your way through these blues. Sometimes, it is just about sticking through it and coping the best way you can. Sometimes I think we have to ride out the sadness.

Also - SO smart in getting out of the house.

I too turn to music when I am in the down times. I am really glad you love the mixes! I am working on a few more and I'll send them out to you when I am done.

It seems like we have similar tastes in music as I love Tennis & the Cults!!!

I just discovered The Civil Wars and have been testing them out too. I am gonna check out Foster the People too.

Please email me or reach out if you ever need to talk.

Sending positive energy and huge hugs your way!

Stinky said...

Music is da bomb at these times - nothing uplifts quite like when you have the right choonz playing - well its not always so much 'uplifts' as just companionises through the time

Mali said...

I can certainly relate to post-travel blues. Glad the music has cheered you up a bit.