So now that Thanksgiving is a thing of the past, it is time to focus on Christmas.
At least that is what I am being fed everywhere I go
I usually watch a lot less television this time of year, as the commercials get so so hard to ignore.
There are families and traditions and colors and emotions.
It becomes harder to go the store to shop for simple things like toilet paper and salsa. There is Christmas music everywhere and children in tow. School is out and the patience level of parents drops as they mow thru stores and life trying to get things done and presents wrapped and food made.
All the while I float and bare witness to mothers yelling at their children in SUV's and fathers screaming at their kids to listen.
I caught sight of myself in the reflection of the car window today and I look tired.
I wonder how I can get my zip back...
what can I do to pull it all together again?
I want to have a holiday, feel like everything is happy and festive.
Special and memorable, like I am creating a memory for just ourselves and that that is ok,
not just something we have settled for.