I have been sort of quiet recently
It freaks out hubby because his first response is, something is wrong.
Thanks to the Barreness being part of our lives, we both jump to catastrophizing things first
and then back peddle from there.
I don't think anything is wrong, I am at a low hum.
I found myself sitting and watching the little girl across the street
play baseball in her princess dress...
layers of tulle and satin swishing as she ran back and forth
to get the ball she had just hit and return it to her mom who was throwing it to her.
Her father riding his long board skateboard around in circles and rooting her on.
I got lost in that for a while.
I saw myself and hubby, in those parents.
I thought of the afternoons that we would have spent, or the ideas we could have shared.
Then I got mad...mad at myself for falling for the Barreness's seductive ways.
She is a sly one, feeding me daydreams
spoon feeding me sweetness that she knows makes me sick.
So today I am trying to work; work on other things that don't hurt or kick deep down inside me:
Two cups of tea
watering the garden
going over images for new submissions
sending love notes to friends
petting the cats
kissing my hubby