sucker punched

It feels as though I was sucker punched.

Walked into an alley and beat up with no knowledge or reason

I did not vote for that man

I do not support his agenda (as vague as it is)

I do not tolerate hate, xenophobia, or misogyny

I do not think fear is the way to motivate people

I want to be clear

this is NOT who I am, 

nor does this man and his clan of huntsmen 

represent anything I stand for.

He is not what so many of my immigrant forefamily

came seeking in America.

I am ashamed and embarrassed

not only in this but myself for not seeing 

just how racist and sexist this country really is!

I am a dreamer and believer 

and it just walked right past my sparkling dreamer eyes 

Emotional

I woke up this morning feeling emotional, more than I expected.

I mailed our ballots in two weeks ago 

I called my mother weeping

I am now on pins and needles

So much is at stake

So much worry

I spoke out when I saw women friends claiming to not want to vote

I learned who really harbors hate for other people

I learned what is important to me

I voted, I voted for myself but mostly for my niece and nephews future

I voted for my and any other woman's reproductive rights 

I voted for my LGBTQ friends

I voted for my earth

I am voting for a change

I am a nasty woman, who is grabbing back her pussy and playing her woman card!