Sunday, January 31, 2010

I wish I could have known you

It appears I lost another early pregnancy.
I am in total shock and wonder what I did to have this repeatedly happen to us.
I sat in the bath this time and watched the blood dissipate in the water...pieces of tissue floated and danced in the liquid. I thought of what might have been and how this was my only time with it before it all flowed away, down the drain.
I held the tissue in my hands and sang to it.
Over time, the pieces fell apart and became smaller and smaller until I was in a tub filled with slightly tinted water and tiny pieces of tissue.
I opened the plug and said goodbye, sitting and watching it all be pulled away and down into the darkness.

Goodbye sweet little something, I will never forget you.