I survived the eye exam today, but left feeling broken and waited to cry until I got back to the car.
I have come to understand that I will not find a doctor, that wants to be a healer.
I went to the EYE doctor for goodness sake and the constant teasing of my poor eyesight, the jokes about how I needed a German Shepard and that I have old eyes were just too much to bear by the end.
I ordered my new prescription and left with eyes the size of saucers.
I am sure that if I haven't had years of doctors telling me all the things that are wrong with my body, it might not have been such a big deal but I think it simply just reconfirms that I do not like doctors anymore.
I simply need to interact with them in order to keep myself healthy, despite them.